I HAVE ALWAYS IDENTIFIED MYSELF AS A "STRAIGHT" AND MASCULINE MAN. I LOVE SEX WITH WOMEN AND I'VE HAD SOME WONDERFUL AND STRONG RELATIONSHIPS WITH WOMEN IN MY LIFE.

I HAVE ALSO HAD A LONG STANDING COCK TO COCK FANTASY. BECAUSE I SO WILLINGLY APPLIED THE "STR8" LABEL TO MYSELF I INSURED THAT I WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO ACT UPON MY FANTASY. I WORE THIS LABEL BY CHOICE...I REFUSED TO IDENTIFY MY URGES WITH WHAT I THOUGHT OF AS "GAY" BECAUSE OF THE EXAMPLES THAT SUB-CULTURE PROVIDED ME...THE ANAL AND PROMISCUOUS BEHAVIOR OF THAT GROUP WAS TOTALLY REVOLTING TO ME.

SO I MAINTAINED AN IRON GRIP ON MY "STR8" LABEL...ALL THE WHILE DOING THE SAME WITH MY D2D FANTASY.

YEARS WENT BY AND MY HOME LIFE CHANGED MANY TIMES, BUT I WAS STILL A "STR8" MAN WHO LIVED HIS D2D FANTASY LIFE IN THE BATHROOM WITH A BOTTLE OF LOTION AND A MAGAZINE PHOTO OF A GUY WITH REALLY CUT ABS. I WAS FIRMLY CONVINCED THAT I WAS THE ONLY DUDE ON THIS PLANET WITH THIS D2D FANTASY. THEN I FOUND THIS SITE...AND I KNEW I WAS NOT ALONE. MY FANTASY BURNED DEEPER, BUT I DIDN'T REALLY BELIEVE I WOULD MEET A KINDRED SOUL IN PERSON.

THEN I DID FIND HIM.

HE HAD BEEN THERE ALL ALONG.

HE WAS ANOTHER GUY LIKE ME...MOSTLY "STR8", BUT WITH A VERY SIMILAR FANTASY...I HAVE KNOWN HIM ABOUT 4 YEARS NOW (AS A "STR8" MAN) AND I HAD NO IDEA THAT HE SHARED THIS FANTASY WITH ME...NOT ONLY WITH ME, BUT ABOUT ME AS IT TURNED OUT. THE REALLY FUNNY PART IS HE WAS THE VERY GUY WHO OCCUPIED MOST OF MY FANTASY AS WELL...HE HAS REALLY NICE AB CUTS.

DESPITE THE TIME I HAVE KNOWN HIM, WE ONLY DISCOVERED OUR SHARED FANTASY A VERY SHORT TIME AGO. NOW THAT WE HAVE THIS D2D RELATIONSHIP, WE LAUGH AT OURSELVES AND OUR "STR8" LABEL.

I HAVE REALIZED THAT IT WAS NOT THE "STR8/BI/GAY" LABEL THAT I FEARED, BUT ONE THAT TIED ME IN ANY WAY TO THE SORDID ANAL THINKING THAT DOMINATES THE "GAY" MAINSTREAM TODAY ...AND ALL THE PROBLEMS THAT PRACTICE INVOLVES.

SO, WHAT DOES ALL THIS MAKE ME?

"BI"?

I GUESS.

I STILL LOVE SEX WITH MY WOMAN AND I HAVE A STRONG D2D RELATIONSHIP WITH MY BUDDY..., BUT I AM STILL A STRONG AND MASCULINE MAN.

SO IF YOU ARE A "STR8" MAN LIKE I AM (WAS?), DON'T FEAR THE LABEL THING MY BROTHER...

THERE ARE MORE OF US THAN YOU KNOW...YOU DON'T HAVE TO GIVE UP YOUR MANHOOD TO EXPLORE YOUR NEVER EXPRESSED FEELING...

YOU CERTAINLY DON'T HAVE TO GIVE UP YOUR MASCULINE CHARACTER. FIND A BUDDY...LIKE ME...AND FIND YOURSELF.

PEACE.

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