Brian

Amazing Grace

12-21-2009

In my post Time to be a WARRIOR +2, towards the end I said "The words of the hymn 'Amazing Grace' come to mind at this point". I have been thinking about this and wondering if maybe some of the guys who read this might find it difficult to make the connection between how I have made the Alliance my community and the words of this hymn. So, first of all, the words I was thinking of at the time of writing the post came from verses 1, 2, and 4. So let's look into this:

The first two lines (of verse 1) are "Amazing grace, how sweet the sound, That saved a wretch like me!"

Well, was I a wretch? Maybe not, but I was certainly in a wretched condition, caught between being a "Gay Guy" and a "Christian", fighting -- but only myself, emotionally and spiritually.

Now the next two lines: "I once was lost, but now am found, Was blind but now I see".

I could not find my way, I did not know where to go, nor could I see my way -- but now all is clear.

So to the first two lines of the second verse: "T'was grace that taught my heart to fear, And grace my fears relieved"

What did I come to fear? And is it good to fear? That depends on what you are taught to fear. The Alliance taught me to be afraid of or more accurately to avoid anal "sex" and promiscuity. The fears it relieved were, the fear of admitting that I am a MAN, a Masculine MAN who has normal needs and wants to be socially with other men and ultimately in Eros with another MAN in a loving relationship -- and I am NOT afraid any longer who knows!

Now the next two lines: "How precious did that grace appear, The hour I first believed!"

I still remember how I was strengthened by Bill's first E mail to me "Re What do you think?", which pointed out how I could be a MAN and a Christian as Warrior Patrick is in his relationship with Bill. Reading that I knew, yes I knew, I had found the truth! Amazing! By the Grace of Jesus, and through the Alliance I am now Warrior Brian and free of the "baggage" I was dragging around and I truly feel as verse 4 says, "Through many dangers, toils, and snares, I have already come; Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far, And grace will lead me home." Or I could say "And grace HAS lead me home" for as I said in Time to be a WARRIOR + 2 THIS IS MY COMMUNITY.

Thank you,

with Warrior Love,

Brian

Also by Warrior Brian Hulme:

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The credit crunch will NOT crunch my Manhood my Masculinity or my Warriorhood

CAN MY MAN TO MAN RELATIONSHIP DRAW ME CLOSER TO GOD?

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Fight Back

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Warrior Equations

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Tales of Nova Sparta

Time to be a WARRIOR +2

About Tithing

The Gift: A Christmas Story

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